Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Resources
I'm have been so blessed by the amount of things that God has brought our way. As adoptive parents we are going to be facing some different challenges and we want to be wise with what we take into consideration for our future kids and with all of the advice and suggested books that the state has given us I have really felt like it would be wise to first really dig into any christian resources that we can find. I was very happy to find yesterday that the focus on the family web site has alot of advise and things to consider for families of older adoptive children, and I really liked what it had to say. So if you would like to get a feel as to what we are going to be working with and how things might look for us based on the different challenges that our kids might have this would be a good place to get an idea from: http://www.focusonthefamily.com/parenting/adoptive_families.aspx
3rd Trimester
I feel like I'm in my 3rd trimester of pregnancy. I hear women talking about how once they get to that point its like alright already I'm ready to be done and to meet my baby! But they also know that it is for the very best of the child that they do wait and that the baby is healthy. And I think that is the easiest way for me to think about all of this. I'm ready to be done but these kiddos are totally worth the wait! according to our social worker it looks like we should start having visitations mid April and then bring them home late may. Lord willing everything gos according to plan And if its HIS plan it will!
Monday, February 22, 2010
How I felt while I waited and continue to wait
This is something I wrote in my paper journal before we got the call saying that yes we have been chosen!!
I'm jumping at every ring of the phone my heart beats a million miles a minute my hands tremble my voice shakes and my mind races.
Never did I think it would be this hard I don't know them I haven't heard there voices or even been told all about them yet but.....I love them I wanted to hold them I want to tell them I love them, to put them to bed and read to them. I want to assure them I will always be there.
I want to cook for them and take them to the park I want. I want to teach them and instruct them. I want to show them Jesus. I want to be apart of healing all of the wounds from there past. I want to watch my husband love them, play with them and teach them. I long for the call that says we are chosen we are the ones that get the honor of saying these are our sons that phrase alone brings tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. oh to hear them giggle at night when they should be sleeping to watch them grow and change even to deal with all of the hard times I would rather have my heart broken with them then to not and not have them.
How excited we are that they have chosen us! There is still a process a head of us and and Im quite confident there is still a ton of emotions to deal with as things come, but The Lord as been and I know He will continue to be so faithful and we are so blessed that He is the one in control and is making Himself known through all of this!
I'm jumping at every ring of the phone my heart beats a million miles a minute my hands tremble my voice shakes and my mind races.
Never did I think it would be this hard I don't know them I haven't heard there voices or even been told all about them yet but.....I love them I wanted to hold them I want to tell them I love them, to put them to bed and read to them. I want to assure them I will always be there.
I want to cook for them and take them to the park I want. I want to teach them and instruct them. I want to show them Jesus. I want to be apart of healing all of the wounds from there past. I want to watch my husband love them, play with them and teach them. I long for the call that says we are chosen we are the ones that get the honor of saying these are our sons that phrase alone brings tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. oh to hear them giggle at night when they should be sleeping to watch them grow and change even to deal with all of the hard times I would rather have my heart broken with them then to not and not have them.
How excited we are that they have chosen us! There is still a process a head of us and and Im quite confident there is still a ton of emotions to deal with as things come, but The Lord as been and I know He will continue to be so faithful and we are so blessed that He is the one in control and is making Himself known through all of this!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
who is your valentine?
Yesturday, I was so amazingly blessed!! A dear frined, my mom, and I had a valentine tea for the ladies in our home fellowship group and it was just amazing, its funny how when you plan on blessing some one they usually end up being the bigger blessing to you! It was such a wonderful time of fellowship and true vulnerability talking, crying laughing and worshiping. I was asked to give a deco aswell, which I have to say was very humbling to be asked to teach a group of women that I so look up to and admire, but God is good and I think layed on my heart what He wanted to ladies to hear. It was just so awesome and I am still so excited about it all! I thought I would share the teaching that I gave and I hope that it is a blessing to you aswell!
For your Maker is your husband, The LORD of hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel; He is called the God of the whole earth
I remember when I was younger probably about 15 or 16 I use to love to have girl friends over Usually it was my best friend Alina and usually she would end up spending the night and we would end up talking and doing a devo or having prayer time and one of things that I use to love to do is get a couple of my teacups that I had carefully put a way in my room and serve us tea in it. For some reason it just made it all the more special! A tea cup can make almost any thing more special, as women we can be compared to a tea cup. I think that, that is the way that God see’s us we are beautiful to him, precious, and to be held gently with pride and to be treasured, breakable yes if dropped and mistreated but also incredibly strong.
Usually during the course of the night with my friend at some point future husbands came up and we would talk and giggle about our hopes and dreams, but one thing was so consistent we wanted them to be Godly leaders, but we were also your typical teenage girls… hopeless romantics and another thing that stayed consistent is we were always brought back to the thought that God is our husband and we would talk about how special we were to have such a romantic amazing husband! As time goes by I think we tend to, all of us married or not to forget that He is our husband and that we truly are in the greatest romance ever written.
I am blessed The Lord gave me the man that I prayed for and how I love him and treasure him. He is however human and our relationship is not perfect, and it is not fair of me to expect him to meet all my needs that is not his job. It is my job to look to God for my need to be met.
Some of the top complaints from women about there husband:
1. They are not understanding enough.
2. They are not sensitive to feelings and needs.
3: They do not listen well
4. They are not affectionate enough.
5. They do not communicate enough. They do not express their feelings and thoughts.
How God meets our needs!
1:For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And [that] my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, [And] skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When [as yet there were] none of them.
2:You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.
3.For [there is] not a word on my tongue, [But] behold, O LORD, You know it altogether
.
4:You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.
[Such] knowledge [is] too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot [attain] it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
5:How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! [If] I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
So now we have the reminder God is our husband he is our provider and he does meet all our needs. And what do we do with this reminder? We put our trust in it!
I just finished the book of Romans a couple of weeks ago and I really felt God leading me to psalms and something that keeps coming up over and over and that keeps sticking out to me….probably a good indicator on what God wants to work on in me is the word TRUST in psalms alone its used 77 times in the whole bible its used 147 times. One definition of trust is: reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, and surety, of a person or thing. David says those who know your name will put there trust in you .Psalm 9:10
God wants our trust, and as his bride he deserves it.
For your Maker is your husband, The LORD of hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel; He is called the God of the whole earth
I remember when I was younger probably about 15 or 16 I use to love to have girl friends over Usually it was my best friend Alina and usually she would end up spending the night and we would end up talking and doing a devo or having prayer time and one of things that I use to love to do is get a couple of my teacups that I had carefully put a way in my room and serve us tea in it. For some reason it just made it all the more special! A tea cup can make almost any thing more special, as women we can be compared to a tea cup. I think that, that is the way that God see’s us we are beautiful to him, precious, and to be held gently with pride and to be treasured, breakable yes if dropped and mistreated but also incredibly strong.
Usually during the course of the night with my friend at some point future husbands came up and we would talk and giggle about our hopes and dreams, but one thing was so consistent we wanted them to be Godly leaders, but we were also your typical teenage girls… hopeless romantics and another thing that stayed consistent is we were always brought back to the thought that God is our husband and we would talk about how special we were to have such a romantic amazing husband! As time goes by I think we tend to, all of us married or not to forget that He is our husband and that we truly are in the greatest romance ever written.
I am blessed The Lord gave me the man that I prayed for and how I love him and treasure him. He is however human and our relationship is not perfect, and it is not fair of me to expect him to meet all my needs that is not his job. It is my job to look to God for my need to be met.
Some of the top complaints from women about there husband:
1. They are not understanding enough.
2. They are not sensitive to feelings and needs.
3: They do not listen well
4. They are not affectionate enough.
5. They do not communicate enough. They do not express their feelings and thoughts.
How God meets our needs!
1:For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And [that] my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, [And] skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When [as yet there were] none of them.
2:You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.
3.For [there is] not a word on my tongue, [But] behold, O LORD, You know it altogether
.
4:You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.
[Such] knowledge [is] too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot [attain] it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
5:How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! [If] I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
So now we have the reminder God is our husband he is our provider and he does meet all our needs. And what do we do with this reminder? We put our trust in it!
I just finished the book of Romans a couple of weeks ago and I really felt God leading me to psalms and something that keeps coming up over and over and that keeps sticking out to me….probably a good indicator on what God wants to work on in me is the word TRUST in psalms alone its used 77 times in the whole bible its used 147 times. One definition of trust is: reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, and surety, of a person or thing. David says those who know your name will put there trust in you .Psalm 9:10
God wants our trust, and as his bride he deserves it.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
update
Update on the adoption we are now having to wait till Monday or Tuesday due to the fact that cyfd is way understaff and have been made to take days off because of budget cuts. These people need lots of prayer they are over worked under payed and over stressed!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Perspective
Its a late night in our house tonight. This is a hugly busy week for us my husband has a ton going on with work, school, and job fairs. Im helping plan a tea for a group of women as well as giving the devo and we are suppose to hear this Friday from the adoption agency if we have been chosen or not for the boys that we want. With all of that coming up my hubby came home monday with a pretty bad cold and he has been pretty sick ever since I mean he is getting no sleep and his nose and throat hurt so much he is just beside himself. So needless to say I am a little stressed, over whelmed and upset. I have been praying and praying that he would be heald and saying things like WHY on a week like this do we have to go through this!!
So since I am up and have nothing really to do I decided to check my email and what do I find an update from prison alert (a ministry of voice of the martyrs)http://www.prisoneralert.com/ and as I read the email I see pic after pic of people all over this world that are being inprisoned all because they wanted to worship Jesus and share His everlasting love, while reading the letter I tried to invision my self telling one of those people of my "trials and tribulation" and thought how silly it would sound to some one who is faceing death all because they went to church, something I take for granted weekly.
So since I am up and have nothing really to do I decided to check my email and what do I find an update from prison alert (a ministry of voice of the martyrs)http://www.prisoneralert.com/ and as I read the email I see pic after pic of people all over this world that are being inprisoned all because they wanted to worship Jesus and share His everlasting love, while reading the letter I tried to invision my self telling one of those people of my "trials and tribulation" and thought how silly it would sound to some one who is faceing death all because they went to church, something I take for granted weekly.
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